Testimony Part 2

 Part Two of Kim Braddy's testimony! God is faithful!
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 I immediately knew that this was not a healthy pregnancy due to the symptoms that brought me to the Dr in the first place.  A series of tests showed that the pregnancy was no longer viable.  A few days later, I went to the hospital for surgery.  When I woke up, the OB told me that I had been pregnant with twins in one of my fallopian tubes. While I was saddened that they had stopped growing around 6 weeks, had the Lord allowed them to continue to grow, my fallopian tube would have soon ruptured and I could have died.  He told me that they removed my fallopian tube and this would significantly reduce my fertility. 

 A month later, I conceived our last baby.  So much for reduced fertility!! About 10 weeks into this pregnancy I had a lot of bleeding that continued for several weeks and made for a complicated pregnancy where my life and the life of the baby growing inside of me were at risk.  This time, instead of freaking out, I was able to look back at the faithfulness of God in my life and say, "OK God, I am weary of this, but you are good and your plans are good so lets do this, whatever your will may be."  I'm thankful to say she is healthy and happy and our family is doing great.  So how does this story have anything to do with blessings?  I used to sing the song, "Blessed be the name of the Lord" and there is a line in this song that says, "you give and take away, but blessed be your name".

  When life is good, this is so easy to sing.  The question is, can you sing it and mean it in the midst of the storm?  It is by God's grace that I can say yes!!  God was so faithful to walk with me every step of the way.  I was so often comforted by the verse. in Isaiah 43 - "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned, the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior."

 God does not ever promise in His Word that I will have it easy in this life but He does promise to walk with me when it isn't!  And what a blessing that is!!!  My hope is in a God who does not change even when my circumstances do. Hebrews 13:8"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever."  That is a blessing!!  I always think about how that probably isn't the worst thing I will go through in my life and how I can look at an uncertain future with joy, hope, and confidence instead of fear.  Because the God of the Bible is faithful!!  This is a blessing to know.  When I look back on this child birthing season of my life, I miss the intimacy I felt to the Lord during those trying times but through these times, He has taught me that total dependence on Him is for my good. 

 It is by God's grace that I am not angry and bitter, but hopeful.  And God continues to use this in my life...

2 Cor 1:3-4 "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God."  The Lord continues to allow me to shed tears and share hope with friends who have gone through this same thing and that is a blessing!  So now, when I think of blessings...I don't just think of the obvious things that the Lord has graciously given me but I think about what a blessing it is to know and walk with a faithful, compassionate, loving, unchanging  God who uses all circumstances of this life to shape us and make us more like His Son.  I look forward with great anticipation to the day when I will be with Him for eternity and He introduces me to those 4 sweet babies that we did not get to hold this side of Heaven. 

Testimony Tuesday

We are so blessed to have our friend Kim Braddy share her testimony with us!  You will be blessed by God's faithfulness in her life!

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Blessings

So often when I think of blessings, I think about all the amazing things God has blessed me with:  air to breathe, sunshine, my home, dinner, my sweet kids or my awesome husband.  That's what I use to think about when I thought of blessings.  That was before the sad loss of 4 babies during 3 pregnancies.  After my first daughter was born, I found out I was expecting again less than a year after her birth.  We were so excited to be having another baby and expanding our family and felt so thankful that the Lord allowed us to get pregnant so easily.  I went to my 10 week appointment at the OB and heard the sweet sound of my baby's beating heart!  

I went back a month later for an ultrasound and knew the moment the screen popped up that something was wrong.  There was just no movement at all. The Dr. just stared at me and said they were sorry and asked if I needed a minute.  I was left in the room sobbing with my one year old in the stroller.  All I wanted to do was hold her and cry!  I remember calling my mom and my husband and telling them that our baby had died.  I had so many questions.  The baby was healthy with a strong heart beat just a few weeks earlier.  How could something like this happen?  I am a healthy person and my first pregnancy was perfect.  What could have gone wrong?  Did I do something that caused this to happen?

 As any woman who has dealt with this knows, there are no answers to these questions.  The Dr. explained that with all the things that have to come together just right in a pregnancy, that there is a surprisingly high percentage of the time that something doesn't happen just right and your body's way of dealing with that is for the pregnancy to stop growing.  Of course, this answer is not helpful because it is really not an answer at all.  

They are basically saying they have no idea why this happens but it sometimes just does.  Isaiah 55:8-9 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts or my ways your ways, declares the Lord.  As the Heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts".  I cried for days and wondered if I would ever again open my eyes in the morning and this not be the first thing I think about. Lamentations 3:22-23 "The Lord's loving kindnesses indeed never cease, for His compassions never fail.  They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness."  Would I ever be able to get pregnant again?  Would this happen again if I did?  

Well, both questions were quickly answered.  I got pregnant just a few months later, only to miscarry once again.  The first time this happened I was so full of sorrow; but this time I was angry.  I had been walking with the Lord for about 5 years at this point in my life and didn't understand how He could let this happen.  It almost felt mean.  Why not just keep me from getting pregnant in the first place?  I was angry and I told God all about it, even though He already knew my heart.  After continuing to wrestle with God about this, I had 2 more healthy, beautiful children a few years later.  However, when my son was almost 3, I once again found myself in the Dr.'s office for some weird symptoms that I was concerned about.  I thought the Dr. was going to tell me that I had an infection, but to my surprise, the Dr. told me I was pregnant.  This was a complete shock!  My husband and I thought we were "done" having kids. 

   Part two tomorrow....  

Teach Us to Pray

Luke 11:1 Lord, teach us to pray.

This weekend at church I was challenged and asked if my prayers were more for my own comfort, safety and current events in my life or were they more heavenly-minded, gospel-centered and mission minded? 

During our nightly devotions as a family, we all take turns praying.  My six year old likes to go first and his prayers are sweet, but do not vary much.  He thanks God for the roof over our head, food on the table and whatever he had fun doing that day.  He may occasionally pray for someone or something else but he is growing. My middle one who is seven is my prayer warrior.  She prays for everything and everyone.  She has a tree in the front yard she calls her, "praying tree".  She climbs it and prays.  She prays without thinking about it.  Such an example.  My oldest prays from her heart and is deep and serious.  I remember one night listening to her on the monitor when she was five years old.  She was praying to Jesus and said, "I asked you into my heart Jesus and I will never ask you out.  I will never say to come in and go out."  I laughed and cried at the same time.

My prayers vary.  The more tired I am and the less time I spend with God and in his Word, the weaker and more temporal are my prayers.  I thank Him for the day, where I saw His hand at work and pray for the next day.  As I write this, I am coming off a two week break from school.  I've had lots of rest, relaxation, play time, getting caught up on life and mostly had an abundance of time with Him and in His Word.  I feel close to my  Heavenly Father and my prayers are so much more potent.  I am reminded that we were created for Heaven.  Heaven is my home and ultimate destination. Do my daily prayers reflect that?  Sadly, not always.  But today, I'm so thankful for this time of renewal.  

Dear Lord Jesus, thank you for saving me from myself.  Thank you for choosing me to be part of your Kingdom.  You have transformed my life and heart and I'm forever grateful.  Lord, I pray that you continue to grow me and mold me into your Son's image.  Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere.  Strengthen and protect my marriage from the demands of a busy life. Help me to be an example for my children, to rear them in such a way that their foundation is unshakeable when they leave our house because You are their rock.  I pray that others come to know  You and Your saving grace through the way we live and the choices we make.  Give my children the boldness to stand firm in their faith and not be wooed by the temptations in this world.  Teach us to love like You love.  In Christ's name, Amen.

Testimony Part Two

Welcome back to Part Two of Becca's testimony!  Becca, thank you for blessing us with your story and for the end where you show How much He loves us!  

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On January 11, 2013, my first week of classes, I met a girl named Kaitlyn. I was lead to ask her about the cross bracelet she was wearing, and after class we spent hours just talking. I told her all about my life, and the guy I had been dating, and how just depressed I felt. And she listened. She didn’t judge me or condemn me for all the sins I kept committing. She told me all about her life, and how unpleasant it had been at moments. But the JOY she had just radiated off her, and it really got me thinking. If somebody who has been through some pretty rough stuff in her life as well could feel this joyful because of this Jesus guy, well I want what she has.

Kaitlyn asked for my number, and over the next few weeks she texted me and kept inviting me to church. Finally, after the 3rd time of asking, I went with her. I will never forget the sermon preached that Sunday. The preacher talked about how we all have “thorns” in our life, crosses we have to bear, but we are given these in order to bring us closer to God. We are all so self-indulged, that unless we felt a need to have Christ in our life, we wouldn’t even try.

Wow. What a powerful sermon it was. So I started reading my Bible every night like I did in high school, going through the motions again, thinking that would make me a true Christian. But it just wasn’t working.

Fast forward to February 13th, 2013. I started feel depressed again. I was hopeless, lonely and felt like nothing would ever get better. The walls felt like they were closing in and I was crying so hard I couldn’t breathe. I picked up my phone and texted Kaitlyn. She didn’t even hesitate, she told me to come over. I spent a few hours over at Kaitlyn’s that night telling her how frustrated I was and that I just couldn’t do it alone anymore. So we prayed together and then she prayed over me. I gave my life to Christ that night. I still wasn’t sure what that meant, but I was willing to find out.

It has been about a year since I accepted Christ into my life. My life definitely isn’t perfect – but through all the pain and the trials, I have a HOPE that I NEVER had before. Depression is a battle that I fight everyday – but now I can fight it with the Truth of God’s Word. He has blessed me with so many Christian friends that are such an encouragement to me. He has healed my relationship with my mom – we finally have the relationship that I have always wanted with her. I am doing my best to live for Christ’s will for my life, and not my own. I know now that I am never alone, because God is always there for me even when the whole world walks out.

Because Christ loves me and you SO MUCH,  He gave HIS ONLY SON, to DIE FOR US. What the crap y’all… there is no love greater than that. Romans 5:8 says “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us”.

We are all here for a purpose, GOD’S PURPOSE. Give up your life to Christ. He loves you and just wants to adopt you as His Child. If you have any questions after reading this, please don’t hesitate to ask !

In Christ, Becca

Testimony Tuesday Part One

Friends,
Today continues our new series where we have a guest blogger who shares their testimony with us!  Becca Simmons is a friend to us and she is a junior at NC State University. She is currently majoring in Animal Science. Her testimony is a blessing and you will be captivated by her transparency and story! Part Two is coming tomorrow so stay tuned!

With great JOY in His salvation,
Leeanne
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I grew up in a big family with 4 siblings and both my parents. I didn’t exactly grow up in a Christian family but we did attend the important holidays and maybe some other Sundays if we all felt like getting up. I wasn’t taught the Word, and never really understood what it meant to be a Christian.

Around the time I was 16 my family had stopped going to church, but I kept going most Sundays. I went to youth group and even attended mission trips every summer. I thought I was doing what I was SUPPOSED to be doing as a Christian. Right? Wrong.

I can’t put my fingers on the first time I really felt depressed but it was probably around the time I was in 8th grade and had just switched schools. In high school, as the years went on, I got more depressed and withdrew more and more from my friends and family. I started going from guy to guy, hoping that something would fill the hole that I felt was growing bigger. By the time I was a senior in high school, I had lost pretty much all my friends because I was just never in the mood to hang out. I started partying and drinking and doing all sorts of drugs, just because I WANTED to fit in so bad. I was dating a guy at the time, and did all sorts of physical things with him just to feel wanted.

Then college came around. I was so pumped to FINALLY make some friends, and then maybe my depression would just disappear. Right? Wrong again my friend. Freshmen year of college was one of the roughest years. I started hanging out with all these different people, joined a sorority, slept around, partying it up, I started doing cocaine pretty heavily, hoping that something would finally make me feel whole and happy. Unfortunately, everything I did just made my depression worse.

My sophomore year came around, and I was back ‘friendless.’ The only person I really had in my life was the guy I was dating, but that was purely a physical relationship. I didn’t know where to go or who I could turn to that would just listen. I started cutting myself to ease the pain, started planning how I would kill myself. One night, during winter break of my sophomore year, I had just gotten into a huge fight with my mom. She told me she hated me, and I finally decided that enough was enough. If my mom hated me, then I must really be unlovable. I got into my car, and started driving like a maniac. I told myself that if I drove fast enough into a tree, then maybe, just MAYBE, it would kill me instantly and all this pain would be over.

Now I know that it was all the Holy Spirit, but at the time I couldn’t have told you what stopped me from crashing my car that night. When I went back to school after break in January, I was lifeless. I would literally crawl out of bed, only looking forward to the next time I would be able to get back into bed. I didn’t want to live anymore, but I was too afraid to kill myself because what if death was worse. So I just existed, and man it was horrible.

Announcement and Burdens of Today

Dear Friends,

We are excited to announce that our blog will be moving over to Wordpress in a couple of weeks. We feel that Wordpress best meets our needs for hosting our blog and all the big dreams we have for the future! The Lord has been so very kind to Jill and me and when our writing adventures began several years ago we never thought we would see it come as far as it has. He has given us vision and goals for the years ahead and we are eager to obey and walk in faith. We will continue to post here and on our new blog for the next two weeks then we will turn off our blogspot blog. You can go ahead and check out our new spot at Wordpress. It will match the current content we post here as well.

http://prayingthroughlife.com

Grateful to walk through life with you all!
Leeanne and Jill

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Burdens of Today

"Do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself.  Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."   Matthew 6:34

I am type A personality.  I joke and often say OCD, although that is nothing to joke about, but I definitely have tendencies.  My tasks and responsibilities often become my burdens.  Why is it on a Friday after teaching school I can go outside and play with my children in the driveway, play a board game and watch a movie with my husband feeling fine about it all?  Monday-Thursday after school I am a different person.  I am focused on chores, tasks and the responsibility of making sure it's all done.  

This winter we have had several snow days (as most people!).  As soon as the next day is called off, I am back to the me I get along with best (and the one everyone else gets along with best).  I have often looked around me so accusatory.  If she would just make her lunch, if he would finish his homework, if she would just take her shower and get ready for bed, if I could just finish folding this laundry, etc.....then I would be able to relax and get along with people better.  

The truth of the matter is, it's me- it's my issues that I am projecting on everyone else.  Yes, if they would just do their task (s) then I would be able to relax more.  But, like weekends and snow days, if I would just relax, things might get done with more peace for all.  Do you have anything that is more your issue than others, but you keep blaming the others for your issue?

God has started to work on this with me.  Taking the unnecessary, stressful emotions out of the day to day routine.  If I can do it on a snow day, weekends, and track outs than I can certainly do it otherwise.  In the meantime, I'll be working on making small changes and trying to not be anxious about getting ready for tomorrow.  

Warmly,

Jill

Testimony Part II

Be ready to be blessed by Part II of Sherri's testimony! 

Walk in Faith,

Leeanne

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We prayed for wisdom to know undeniable peace, and wisdom to discern good from God’s best. We prayed that the Lord would clearly open doors and then we would be faithful to walk through them, whatever they are. My husband’s accountability partner said too him, “why don’t you go back to school and get another degree.” What? That same week my old boss was moving and the new person called me to interview for the same position, except he was looking for someone part time.

“Part time”, I said. You mean I could work and also pick my kids up from school? It was perfect and the Lord had provided. Just as a side note, this was a position I had worked at ten yeasr earlier and I had kept my small retirement account there open. Never thinking I would ever work there again, but the Lord knew, didn’t He? Meanwhile my husband applied for schoo,l got in, got his old transcripts, things transferred over, classes were open, school grants were given,  everything happened so smoothly and quickly. We were amazed. This was how the Lord worked and He alone opened these doors. So my husband started school and I started work, and our lifestyle changed drastically. For the first time ever, my husband was home in the mornings, got the kids ready for school, many times brought them to school, picked them up, helped with homework, we were a team and it was wonderful. For the past ten years, he had always been out the door on the morning at 5:15 to head to the kitchen. Now, having him around and invested in this way was life changing. He started attending a Tuesday Morning Men’s breakfast, and it was life changing. It challenged in him in many ways, he loved it so much he started bringing our son and they bonded. I watched their relationship grow and transform from father and son to two brothers in Christ. Then he started bringing both our boys. You talk about a blessing, there are no words to adequately explain the blessing of having your children and husband start their week with a men’s breakfast and accountability and bible study. I watched the Lord at work in their lives and I watched my boys relationships with men at our church transform them. They learned to serve and learned to speak up in front of others, they learned to speak with adults and find scripture to shape their thoughts, it was life changing. 

As a result of going back to work, comes the blessing of the people I work with. The Lord put into my life an amazing boss and his sweet family and a remarkable coworker.  This coworker loves the Lord and openly shared her family and experiences with me. We’ve laughed so hard we’ve cried, we’ve finished each other’s sentences, she’s challenged me to think more openly, that life isn’t always black and white. I sometimes have “gray troubles”.  She has given my family vacations, her husband has been a wonderful friend too my husband. I have watched her children arise and call her blessed and seen what that actually looks like. There are too many stories to share how rich my life is because of her.  

All of these blessings came because my husband lost his job. These are blessings worth more than rubies and diamonds.  Our family and friends have challenged us, and loved us deeply with gifts, vacations, time and encouragement and most of all prayer. Truth be told, I would much rather give than receive but we had to receive. We had to say, “thank you, this means more than you know and I cannot repay you, literally I cannot repay you.” And I learned that these people God put in our lives wanted to love us that deeply, they wanted to give too us and I was robbing them of a blessing if I received these gifts poorly. I learned to receive these gifts well and to share openly about what the Lord was doing in our life and our marriage. That means sharing personal things, oh I tell you what, I did NOT like doing that. But I shared, later rather than sooner, but no worries, the Lord and dear friends didn’t give up on me. 

So now finally, two years after my husband started school he is on the last leg. Our journey however is not. His graduation is coming soon. He has only one class left so last Fall he started interviewing for positions in his new field of work, positions that people told him would be plentiful. The positions are not there. Should we now in this darkness, darkness of him finally finishing school,  studying his nights away and now finding that there are no jobs available, stop trusting the Lord? No, it is now in this darkness that we trust even more that His ways are much better and higher than ours. It’s easier to trust in the light, you can see pretty well but in the darkness we’ve learned to reflect on His goodness, remember His faithfulness and look with expectation and what HE has already prepared in advance for us. 

The interviews dwindled and there was nothing in this new field that my husband had been preparing for. Then his old boss, from the kitchen, calls. They talk and catch up. I hear my husband pray, “Lord I am excited about what you have in store for me, even if it means I’m back in the kitchen.” Those were precious words to hear.  I’ve been able to watch my great and wonderful Savior transform my husband and draw him closer to Himself, having a front seat to that is indeed the best place to be.

Are you wondering about the bank account? Well almost three years later from when this journey started, my husband is back in the kitchen. The bank account was brought down to almost nothing. The Lord really stretched me in that way. But during this time we had to purchase a new vehicle. The Lord provided. He was not going to allow me to place my trust in that $ amount, I had to learn and continue to learn that He provides in ways I cannot imagine.  Ways like some precious girlfriends bringing over BAGS of amazing clothes one night just for fun (when I had said to myself earlier that week, no I will not spend $3.89 at the thrift store). 

My husband took this job, only about one month after a Godly accountability partner said to me,   ” I am going to pray that he is in his job and well-adjusted by the end of winter” ! He started the last day of February. We are tremendously thankful for this journey. The Lord has given my husband and sons so many sweet moments of memorable time together that they will probably never have again. I often said to my husband, “other than this whole no-paycheck thing, I really LOVE our lifestyle of you being home.”  The journey continues and we have received blessings from His hand that we couldn’t have imagined. The verse in John about Him wanting us to live life abundantly has struck home as He is a lavish God who genuinely wants us to feel the joy that He alone can give. Thank you for allowing me to share my journey.

With Joy,

Sherri ~ 919-802-2962      http://GreenFlash-Productions.com 

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